Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Not much longer

I said I would try to post quicker this time so here we go. We went to the doctor today and also saw Aiden. He continues to grow and has not fallen any further behind but is not gaining weight like he should so with the guidance from our doctors we have scheduled a c-section for Friday, Nov. 6 @ 8:00 am. One week and we meet our precious baby boy. He has proven to be a stubborn little boy already in that he has not moved into a different position and he is not giving us a good profile shot but we do see that he has his daddy's nose and his mommy's cheeks - good combination I think!!! We go on Wednesday, Nov. 4 for the last doctor visit and ultrasound before his birth, so the next time we see him it will be in person.

Of course, we are excited and scared like any parents would be but the excitement of meeting this little guy overpowers all fear and anxiety. This has been a long and hard journey for all of us. Last night our church gathered with other members of the community to show their love, support, and prayers for us and it was to say the least very overwhelming. I have said that if the c-section was the best thing for Aiden that it would be done but I have always been very fearful of it. The other boys were natural so I always assumed Aiden would be but God has different plans for him and we are following those plans. After last night and having everyone pray for us, I feel calmer and more at ease about this. No, that does not mean I'm not a little worried about surgery but it does mean that I'm at peace with it. I know some might think I'm ok with this by saying I'm at peace but that is far from fact but I'm not angry and don't think I ever was. I'm hurt not because of me but because of my sweet son and him having to go through this and never wanting him to suffer.

We know that decisions are still ahead about Aiden's care but we continue to have faith that we will bring Aiden home with us no matter the length of time and will enjoy every moment. We have seen how Aiden has already made an impact in peoples' lives and know that we will continue to see it. It has brought a community together praying for this little boy and we realize more than ever how many special friends we have. May God bless you in your own way as he has us.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Weekly Appointments - October 21, 2009

We have started weekly doctor and ultrasound appointments to monitor Aiden's growth/progress. As of now, he is not gaining weight like he should and my fluid is getting low so that is not helping. So my doctor with the guidance of the perinatologist has decided that we should deliver Aiden via c-section in 1.5 -2 weeks to give him the best chance. He is breech so this is the reason for the c-section plus it will be less stress on him not having to go through a regular labor/birth.

During all pregnancies, they look for signs of how the baby is doing i.e. lung development/breathing, heart beating regularly, movement, etc. They are 8 things that are looked at regularly during ultrasounds and so far he has 8 positives out of 8 - so this is good thing.

I really wanted to wait as long as possible for his birth to give him every opportunity to gain weight and get stronger but I have come to realize that I have done what I can and need to hand it over to the NICU pediatricians to take over. I have full faith in them and know they will support my wishes and take care of my little boy.

We have 2 more visits before we set the date, it could be Nov. 5 or the week after, so it's time to get everything ready and in a hurry. We can't wait to meet him and love him. Please continue to pray for this special little boy, he means the world to his parents and his brothers.

1. Continue to pray for Aiden's healing.
2. Pray for HIS guidance in our decisions for Aiden.
3. Pray for the doctors and nurses that will be in contact with Aiden.
4. Pray for Aiden to gain weight before his birth.

I want to thank everyone for reading, commenting, loving, and praying for our little Aiden.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Doctor's Visit - 10/07/2009

I know I'm a week behind posting but it's been a busy week - I'll get to that later.

First we had the ultrasound, this time with Tracy, who we have not seen before but liked very much. Tina had already discussed Aiden with her so she would know everything and this made it a lot easier on us. She took her time and looked at everything and patiently and honestly answered our questions along the way. Aiden continues to grow at a slow but consistent pace from week to week and he continues to amaze us with how active and difficult he can be during our appointments. We continue to see no problems with his organs and he looks great. He is being a little difficult in that he is not letting us get a good profile shot of his adorable face but I know he will in his own time. He is breech as of right now and from doctor's perspective they don't think he will change into a good position for a natural birth so we may be looking at a c-section. This concerns me b/c it is surgery and that scares me but I have already told the doctors that anytime during labor if he went into distress that we would do a c-section but knowing that before hand is different. But whatever works for Aiden works for me!!

Next we met with Dr. Payne, one of the NICU doctors at St. Francis, she was very nice and answered questions and talked about her concerns. One praise that we definitely had was about his organs developing as they should, she confirmed that if they did not show any signs of problems then they would not develop later, she then inserted- but that ultrasound don't/can't always show everything. I continue to have faith that his organs are perfect and developing. She was very informative and requested that we continue with a written birthing plan to at least give the doctors, nurses, and hospital a starting point but that nothing would be set in stone.

Next we saw my doctor, I have started having Braxton Hicks contractions that wake me up at night and some swelling which luckily did not really concern my doctor at this point in the pregnancy. He did change me from biweekly to weekly appointments and continue biweekly ultrasounds to monitor Aiden's growth/progress. He suggested that we possibly do a c-section somewhere between 35 - 37 weeks because of Aiden's position. I'm opposed to this because I want to let Aiden grow as much as possible before his birth.

So as of right now, we are continue to work on a birthing plan and seek HIS guidance in this process. We also celebrate everyday that we have with Aiden, now and after his birth.

1. Continue to pray for Aiden's healing.
2. Pray for HIS guidance in our decisions for Aiden.
3. Pray for the doctors, nurses, and hospital that will be in contact with Aiden.
4. Pray for our family.
5. Pray that Aiden is able to move into position for his birth and if not for comfort during the c-section.

I should also say that I have the BEST FRIENDS in the world, they surprised me and took me to a day spa and shopping this past Saturday - THANK YOU SO MUCH! Since I didn't know what was going on I didn't take a camera, so as soon as I highjack some pics from them I will blog it. Plus it got me out of the house while my dear hubby and his dad redid our back patio, which they did a excellent job on.

I promise I will try to be quicker about updating everyone on Aiden and our family.

Thank you and God Bless.