Today 1 year ago you were born into this world and it was the happiest day of our lives. I remember laying in the operating room scared not because of the c-section but of not meeting and holding you. They whisked you away before I was able to see you and you never made a sound. I've heard stories of when they showed you to your big brothers that Hunter tried to follow when they took you to NICU. Both Hunter and Mason love you dearly and pray for you to be happy and healthy in Heaven, which I know you are.
There are so many things I want to tell you and so many things I know we should be doing. I held a little boy that was born the day before you and Hunter & Mason were standing beside me and all I could think was this is how it should be. . .
my 3 little boys in my arms.
If you were here, you would be walking everywhere, you would be sitting on the floor rolling the ball back and forth with your brothers, you would be trying to get in the kitchen cabinets and would find the one unlocked cabinet that you can play in, you would try coloring with your brothers but would realized eating it is more fun, you would love cuddling at night while Hunter reads his books for school, you would be eating "real" food and loving Cheetos and orange fingers, and you would have worn your first of many Halloween costumes and gone on our neighborhood hayride, you would be getting ready for your 2nd Christmas, YOU WOULD BE HERE.
The days of crying have slowed but have not stopped and never will. I'm not sure of who I am but I'm sure of who I need to be - a child of Christ. God's love keeps me going and knowing that there are no goodbye's but I will hold you again. Heaven became a better place the day you arrived.
We miss you so much but are so happy that you are not suffering and you are healed by God's Grace and Neverending Love. Thank you Dear Lord for giving us the time we had and giving us the Faith to know we will be together again.
HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY, AIDEN!
The LORD will work out His plans for my life--for Your faithful love, O LORD, endures forever. Don't abandon me, for You made me.